Allah, help me.

Should I allow him or shouldn't I? What should I really do? Ya Allah, how weak and helpless I feel right now. Ya Allah, there is no knowledge that I possess except for what you allow me. I am in such a helpless stage Ya Allah. Help me and give me ideas on how to solve this conflict.

When your kids are small, parents are more concern for their physical well being. Are they healthy enough? Have I prepare healthy food for them? Do they have all that they need to study well? Parents are their providers. When kids turn into teenagers, parents have to be their friends. If not, they will turn to their friends and parents will no longer be an important factor to consider when they make a decision. No matter how close you are with your kids, they will constantly test you to see just how far can they go. It is during such conflict that I feel so vulnerable and weak. Naturally I will turn to Allah. As I always do. In small or big matter.

Allah will always answer my prayers, alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah. There was once when I was driving after a clash with one of my son, I pray to Allah to help me. I don't want to control my kids too much for teenagers hate that but at the same time, I don't want my kids to be out of control. I rest my case with Allah. When I got home, my kid was already o.k and his actions clearly tell me he was sorry. Problems solved without me doing a thing, just pray to Allah.

Once, I was deeply in thought about my eldest son. Suddenly I got the urge to call him. I asked him did he do this and that just before he had his (both) car accidents? He said yes. He was sorry he went against my wish and not telling me about it, to put it softly. I said that was why you met with both accident. Then naturally his next word was how did I know about it? There is no way I should have known.

How did I knew it? Kind of hard to tell. But I always get to know about the things that my kids were trying to hide from me. Sooner or later. And for that I ask them to be careful for I never pray to Allah for something bad to happen to them, but something always happen when they go behind me.

According to Ustaz Zahazan (ustaz is a religious teacher), Allah will give insight to those who;

1) takes care what he eat, it is halal or not. And to avoid eating syubhah food, food that you are not really sure its halal status.

2) follow the sunnah of Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him. Sunnah is the way Prophet Muhammad live his life, the way he eat, drink, up to the way he govern his daulah or kingdom.

3) always read verses from the Holy Quran. Daily.

I have always try my best to do all three. Reading Qur'an everyday. Always look at the label of food that I intent to buy and see its ingredients. Not eating while standing even though it is in a hotel with no seat in the hall, where they serve tea for break. And the such. It is not easy to do at times but for my love for Prophet Muhammad, I did my best. Loving Prophet Muhammad means we love Allah.

I guess that how I knew. Insight that Allah give me. I always pray to Allah to take care of my family. This is another reason how I knew. Because Allah answer my prayer. So Abang Long (my eldest son) if you read this, this the answer how I knew. From Allah.

Verily there is no god but Allah and Prophet Muhammad is the messenger of Allah. One of the many messenger. Including Jesus is a messenger. That's why I love Jesus. To all christians out there, I extend my hand of brotherhood, or sisterhood. To believers of all other other religions, i pray to Allah to give guidance to us. I have always rely on Allah's guidance in raising my kids.

May Allah bless us all.

insight - the capacity to gain an accurate and deep intuitive understanding of a person or thing