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Sunday, February 16, 2014

How do you feel?

Most of my fellow teachers were surprised to get my eldest son's wedding invitation from me. There were four common responses : 
i) Why didn't you tell us before? 
ii) You look so young to get a daughter in law already; 
iii) Ooo.. you are going to be a grand mother soon! and 
iv) How do you feel about your son getting married already?

The last question makes me ponder of my own answers.

Well this is my answer as to how I feel about my eldest son getting married already at the tender age of 24. I have perform my duty as a mother when I carry him in my womb for nine months. I have given birth to him and I was half dead after the process. I had fed him with my own milk for two years. My husband and I have raise him up with education until he graduated as a chemical engineer. My husband and I have taught him wisdom to distinguish between what is right and wrong, to value moral more than money, to help friends in need, to lend a hand whenever possible, to be a diligent worker, and to make wise choice, and many others. Now our duty, as parents, is to marry him off to a pious young woman that can complete the other half of his religion. Some mothers are sad to marry off their son or daughter. My policy - I always choose to be happy not sad. To be happy or sad is not a destiny, it's our choice. Allah has never been unfair to us but on the other hand it is we that have always been unfair to ourselves.

May Allah bless us all.

Monday, February 10, 2014

Stop and ponder

Busy with our work, 
we fail to notice our baby is a toddler now

Tight up with tight schedule
We hardly had times for our spouse

Trying to reach our office on time
We hardly notice the waving branches along the way

Finishing our assignments
We didn't realize our office mates are hungry for our time
   to share her/his problems with us

Working so hard to please our boss
We forget to please our family
   with precious time spend on a holiday

Working hard to make more money for our family
We fail to realize they value our time more
    to be spend with them

If only our kids can pay
to get a few hours of our time
they are willing to pay
to get back their long lost parents

What a poor life
if it is judged 
on how much money we make

What a sad story
to give expensive stuffs as present
when what our family need
is our precious time with them
full of laughter
full of sweet memories

Presents will be forgotten
presents will perish 
but sweet memories will remain 
to our death bed

Appreciate what we have
while we still have it
while we still deserve it
or it will be taken away
leaving us devastated
realizing we have been chasing untouchable rainbows all these while
when beautiful flowers in front of us
wilt away without us realizing
its very existance 

Don't wait
until it's too late

May Allah bless us all. Ameen.

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Ali Imran: 14

Sahih International

Beautified for people is the love of that which they desire - of women and sons, heaped-up sums of gold and silver, fine branded horses, and cattle and tilled land. That is the enjoyment of worldly life, but Allah has with Him the best return.          Chapter Ali Imran: Verse 14
Men has always always been mesmerized by women and children. We have always long to have heaps of gold, big houses, big cars, powerful bikes, vast lands full of cows and cattle. Everyone of us want all these things. To own them is like to own the whole world. To own them is like to own happiness itself. But happiness prove to be elusive…. The nearer we are to wealth, the farther happiness runs from us. 
I'm aiming for the 'happily ever after' happiness. By giving my time, energy, thoughts, ideas, to seek Allah's pleasure. Performing my duty as a wife, I sacrifice a lot for the happiness of my marriage for Allah says his pleasure to a married woman depends on her husband's pleasure towards her. Being a teacher, I sacrifice my time and money to improve my students in the subjects that I teach. Staying back until late evening almost every day to make sure I have done my best as a teacher. Thinking and creating programs to make my students know and love Islam better, to worship only Allah and to love and follow Prophet Muhammad peace be upon him (p.b.u.h). Coming home late from school, even though I'm tired, I move around as fast as a kangaroo, making sure I finish all my chores before my husband comes home. When he's home, I want to be a doting wife to a tired husband that has spend the whole day working to earn money for the family. Being a mother I make sure my children are taught the manners and soft language of Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him (p.b.u.h). My family should manifest the teaching of Prophet Muhammad (p.b.u.h). That's our best dakwah
Everything that we do should be done for the purpose of seeking Allah's pleasure. 'That is the enjoyment of worldly life, but Allah has with Him the best return'. Oo Allah, I'm aiming for the best return that you have with you. Please make my niat or intention purely to seek your pleasure. This world is only a small stop on our way to hereafter. A place to gather enough deeds to seek Your pleasure. We will never done enough deeds to trade in with your jannah or heaven. We can only hope You will forgive all our sins and accept us as your obedient servants. We can only hope You are willing enough to let us see You and our Prophet Muhammad (p.b.u.h) in heaven. To be close to both of you. Hope this is not too much to ask from a humble servant to You o our mighty Lord. Plese grant our wish……(sobbing…).
May Allah bless us all. Ameen.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Grab every chance of dakwah

I have to say I enjoy my hectic life right now. Trying to do the best for my school and students, I never forget my duty to my lord, Allah. Grabbing every single chance to create programs to attract people to Islam, I feel that I have wasted my time a lot less. I no longer have the luxury of having a favorite tv program. But I enjoy every minute of those hectic time table. Thank you Allah for helping me to savor my precious time. 

Saturday, January 4, 2014


'Surely, Allah is all-gracious to people, but most of the people are not grateful" - Al Baqarah: 243.
Reading the Qur'an after subuh prayer, I felt so touched by this verse. 

Allah is so gracious to me by bestowing a lot blessings. I'm still alive today. I still have oxygen to breath. I still own two hands and two legs. I still have a family to support me. I'm still healthy. I still have a chance to repent and improve myself. And a million other blessings. Some people have lost some of these.

But Allah says '...but most people are not grateful'. Do I have to see a man without any leg to appreciate the two legs that I have? Do I have to be sick to realize that I forgotten to be thankful for my good health all these while? Do I have to see a beggar wearing torn clothes to be grateful for the good clothes that I have no matter how cheap it is? Subhanallah. Ya Allah please forgive me. Please… forgive me.

May Allah bless us all. Ameen.

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

We like to….

It has been a long, long time since I last update my blog. My apology to those who follow me - from California and other places all over the world… or am I losing followers. 

To write for me is to share. To share how to be strong. How to be grateful to Allah. 

We like to be praised for our work. Sometimes we will be discontented because our boss doesn't seem to appreciate our work. If we have this kind of feeling….. and we are bound to have it one time or another……. that means we are not sincere enough. Sincerity in performing our job is to see the good effects it has on people's life even though nobody seems to notice. We forget that Allah notices. We forget that Allah's rewards can come in many splendid forms. Good health, great family, devoted wife/husband, abiding kids, caring neighbors, helpful coworkers,…… the list can go on and on. Instead we limit our happiness to the praise of our boss. Such a wasteful life but many people didn't realize this. 

We like to look beautiful. But we forget beauty is inside our heart. A kind person's face will shine. Sometimes when I looked at a person's face on the street, his/her face look dark even though that person has a fair skin. I guess there's no nur or the light of iman/faith on that person's face. The best make up for our face is a sincere smile that will outshine the sun rays.

We like to do things the easy way. But we forget that it takes 99% of sweat and perspiration and only 1% of genius to produce success. And yet we envy those who work hard to get to where they are now. 

May Allah bless us all. Ameen.