My miracle baby

Is this pregnancy an accident? No. Do you realized that in your condition, you are not suppose to get pregnant? It's dangerous for your kidney and your baby's life. You might risk total kidney failure. Yes, I fully realized that. The Obstetrics and Gynecology (O&G) specialist stared at me in disbelief. She looked at me as though I was mad. Or as if I was in a state of trance and therefore didn't realized what I was saying. No doctor. This is a wanted and planned pregnancy.

Ya Allah I am in front of the Holy Kaaba now. I prostrate myself to you as your helpless servant. Please grant me another child that I can raise to be your obedient servant. A child that will spread your words. A child that will spread the teaching of Islam. And if you grant this wish of mine Ya Allah, please give me good health in spite of my health problem. Please safe guard my health and my baby's health.

It was only after about nine months after I got back from performing my Hajj that I found myself pregnant. My husband was elated. Could this be really true? After a gap of ten years? Well, ten years because my doctor advice me against being pregnant. To go against my doctor's advice, I need Allah's help. Praying in front of the kaaba, I feel so serene, so peaceful. A sign that I can proceed with what I want. Allah has always given me signs. In my heart.

The pregnancy wasn't an easy one. At this age, it drain all my energy. Getting to class was an enormous task. No question about taking the lap top with me as my teaching aids. Instead of having regular pregnancy check out at the local health centre, I have to go the my hospital. I have two specialist clinic to check, G&E and Nefrology. There are times when all my readings went up and the pressure on my emotion was so tense. I have to remind myself of my niat or intention.

Your blood is so thich now. It poses a danger to your fetus and to yourself too. You need to take two type of pills. But I have to tell you that one of it contain pork but the Fatwa Council that have ruled that since it is crucial for patient's life and since there's no other alternative, it is halal.

OK doctor, I understand your explanation. I never doubt the fatwa given by the Fatwa Council. But I will never take that pill. Not unless if you scan and found out that my fetus is not growing and is really in danger of dying. My decision is final. I have big plan for this baby. I don't want to have a bad start.

Now my Aiman is almost five years old. He is Allah's miracle for the family. Learning how to read the Qur'an. There is nothing that I can do without Allah's permission. We can have all the knowledge in the world, be it islamic knowledge or psychological knowledge (which is also part of Islamic knowledge), we can go to all kinds of parenting courses but without Allah's permission we will never achieve anything.

Ya Allah, please blessed all my efforts in raising my five kids. Please let us set good examples to all those around us. May our examples speaks louder than our words. Please bless this family.

May Allah bless us all. Ameen.

trance - a half-conscious state characterized by an absence of response to external stimuli, typically as induced by hypnosis or entered by a medium.

prostrate - lay oneself flat on the ground face downward, esp. in reverence or submission

elated - in high spirits; exultant or proud : the ladies returned with elate and animated faces.