Usrah session

Another usrah session on friday with my girls at the school's musolla or surau. I'm expecting one of the form three girls would present but it turned out no one was given the assignment. Some miscommunication between me and my committee members. To me it mean I have not conveyed my instruction clearly to my secretary. Just like what my principle always said in our weekly meeting, if there is any problem that arises it mean she is at fault. Always look inside ourselves first.

In my impromptu presentation, I told the girls to always believe that everything is possible with Allah's help. Don't ever think that I'm not clever like that girl. Or that I cannot score in this subject. Or the such. It only shows that we do not trust Allah enough. 

Imam Hassan Al Banna spent a lot of time spreading Islam. To the extent of going to pub to preach. He end up not fully prepared for his final exam. But on the night before his final paper he dreamt that a man in white robe came to him. The man instructed him to open a kitab or book at certain pages. Then they went through it together. Imam Hassan Al Banna was studying in his sleep. On the next day when he opened up his exam paper he found out those pages that he studied in his dream last night came out in the exam. He passed with flying colours.

Allah's help can come in many forms. Never loose hope and always pray to Allah to help us in every endeavor. Put all our hope and dependance on Allah and Allah alone. I hope my girls understand this.

After the usrah session some of the girls followed me to my car. Opening up the car boot, I asked the girls to choose any books that they want to borrow. Some of them have already finished their final exam and I want them to fulfill their times with reading books that will draw them nearer to  Allah.

May Allah bless us all. Ameen.

Learning to be a better person

We stopped by a shop to get some coffee packs for my husband. Adhan zohor, the call for afternoon prayer or rather Friday prayer since today is Friday, can be heard from a far. I commented to my daughter that the shop was still open. The owner should be going to the mosque to perform the compulsory prayer by now. Why was the shop still open? Anyway I went down from the car and search for the product that I wanted. That was when I noticed a lady behind the counter. Ooopppsss... this mean that the owner is no longer around. Probably in the mosque already. Astagfirullah....please Allah please forgive me for thinking badly about the male owner. After paying for the products I hopped back into the car.

My daughter told me an incident that happened to her about an hour ago. She was in a shop looking for something with her classmates. There was a male student inside the shop. He was holding a cigarette in one hand and reaching out to my daughter's face with the other hand. Luckily my daughter managed to duck just in time. That made me feel furious. I asked my daughter did she said something in retaliation? She said no because she is in the process of learning to increase her patience. That statement struck me. I complimented her on her struggle to contain her anger. And I said I'm learning too, learning to think positively about everyone and not to jump into hasty conclusion.

Thank you Allah. I feel that my daughter and I are in your guidance. We are both consciously trying to improve our known weaknesses. And we have no strength what soever except the strength that You have given us. Give us the strength to identify our weaknesses and give us the strength to improve our weaknesses. Amin.

May Allah bless us all.

duck - lower the head or the body quickly to avoid a blow or so as not to be seen

retaliation - make an attack or assault in return for a similar attack : the blow stung and she retaliated immediately.

compliment - a polite expression of praise or admiration : she paid me an enormous compliment.

Stuck between two people?

Stuck between two people? Between our boss and our office mate, between our spouse and our kids, between two dear friends, between whom we would like to help and whom we should help.... the list goes on and on. 

Sometimes I find myself in this difficult situations. It is difficult to decide what to do or who to choose. But should we really choose one of them? In this difficult situations I always pray to Allah to give me guidance as to what to do. Pray to Allah to soften the heart of both parties. And I will always ask Allah to solve my problems for Allah is the best problem solver. In the end Allah will always give me a win, win solution. Not really having to choose one of the conflicting parties but instead Allah will always give me ideas how to make both parties happy. Ideas that come to me as the answer to my prayer. Subhanallah. Praise be to Allah.

Sometimes it just take a few minutes. Sometimes a few days of long night prayers to seek guidance. Sometimes a lot longer that that. But Allah never leave me alone. 

Thank you Allah for everything. Only you I worship and only you I seek help.

May Allah bless us all. Ameen.

Hajj

Nostalgic. My heart will quiver every time I watched TV program on people going to perform their hajj. How I wish I can go to Mecca and Medina again. At least to perform umrah. But as my husband said since we have perform our obligatory hajj nine years ago our priority now is to save money to marry off our kids. My eldest son is 22 years old now. Getting married, according to Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him (p.b.u.h) is completing half of our religion. May Allah ease us on this holy mission.

I remembered watching outside the bus entering the city of Mecca. The stone lining up on the hill alongside the road to me are luckier than me. They were around when Prophet Muhammad (p.b.u.h) was living in Mecca. Looking up the sky above Masjidil Haram, I saw birds circling and hovering above Kaabah. They are luckier than me because they live in Mecca and breathing Mecca's air. 

Ya Allah, bless all the people that are performing their hajj and give them a mabrur hajj.

May Allah bless us all.